A Little Encouragement

This, I'm writing this not only to myself, but also to you, who feel dull. To you, who feel tired. To you, who feel like giving up. I want you to read this and finally feel what I try to convey. I want you to feel better afterwards, knowing words always have this kind of magic of healing, to finally remind you that you are not alone and you can't give up.

Have you ever feel like you're never enough? Like life has been doing unfair to you. Like everything just doesn't fall into the right places. Like you've tried so hard, all out, but got nothing in return. Like you just barely live, merely exist. You always try to convince myself that everything is going to be alright, that you don't need to push yourself too hard, to overthink unnecessary thoughts, to feel them unhealthy feelings all at once.

But no matter how hard you try, no matter how optimistic you thought you've become, there would be some points where you feel like you're not good enough. You feel worthless. Underpressured. Like there is some sort of pain, pressuring you, toring your heart apart, destroying your self-defense, breaking you into pieces.

Because I do. We all do.

At times it's hard, you know, dealing with yourself, with all these problems. You'd think, how come life is always treating me this way? Where will life take me to? Where am I going? What's in the future? Shall I worry about things like this? Will everything be alright? How will things end up? These thoughts suck. These thoughts, I can't even.

Sometimes I remind myself that everything is temporary, though, no matter how happy or sad you are now, no matter how fantastic or dull the life you're living in, it's going to end anyway. It's all ephemeral. We are surrounded by temporary things, even living a temporary life, but the point is always the same; how to make the best out of it, right? And sometimes it suffocates me, the thought of not living the life we expected when we only got one chance. We only live once. We can't blew it up. But how? How can we make this life worth living?

Well, I just want to remind you that you are not alone. You will never be alone. Sometimes it seems impossible to accept when you've been trying damn hard to get up yet life always knocks you down. I know motivation words might not be powerful enough to lift you up from this state but I hope these words would at least make you feel better.

Terutama untuk temen-temen gue, yang udah gue saksiin kerja kerasnya, semangatnya ngejar mimpinya, dan mungkin sekarang belum waktunya itu semua terbayarkan. Lu mungkin merasa hidup gak adil, merasa doa-doa lu gak didenger, ketika lu merasa udah berjuang mati-matian, tapi kenapa hasilnya malah kayak gini? Emang rasanya sedih dan mau sesering apapun gue berusaha ngehibur lu, gue tau mau gue ngasih kata-kata klise juga basi dan mungkin gak guna, karena emang rasanya sesedih itu. The disappointment, the pain, they are real, semua orang pasti pernah berada di suatu titik di mana suntikan semangat udah gak mempan lagi. Semua orang pasti pernah mengecap pahitnya kegagalan dan rasanya yang di depan mata cuma ada jalan buntu.

Tapi gue cuma pengen lu tau kalo kerja keras lu gak sia-sia, selalu inget kalo semua ini bakal berlalu. Bahkan Allah udah ngasih jaminan di Qur'an, "Indeed what is to come will be better for you than what has gone by." Suatu hari lu bakal nengok ke belakang dan bersyukur lu gak memilih untuk menyerah di saat-saat seperti ini. Lu akan sadar kegagalan seperti inilah yang membuat lu sukses nantinya. Yang Di Atas gak mungkin gak denger doa lu, karena sejatinya ada tiga jawaban atas doa-doa kita, kan? Diiyain dan dikasih sekarang, diiyain tapi disuruh tunggu dulu, dan dikasih yang lebih baik. The latter might be beyond our expectation; sometimes it's not what we think we want, but it's definitely much greater, much more beautiful.

And now I want to appreciate your effort, your hard works, all you've done all this time. You've done your best, you've tried well enough. Remember how many times you felt like giving up yet you survive. Remember how many times you faced problems you thought you couldn't deal with yet you beat them all. You've made it this far! Whatever situation you are in right now, you will survive this too. You will break but oh you will also heal. This too shall pass, keep that in mind.

While there is life, there is hope. Everything is going to be alright anytime soon. Wonderful things awaits you in the future. It's okay to cry it out, don't hold it all in. It's okay to feel down, it's okay to tell someone, it's okay to keep it to yourself. Take your time, do something that will make yourself feel better. Just don't give up.

"And He does not burden a soul beyond what it can bear."